The Retreat To Being…
If you follow my tweets, you already know. I just returned from a 5 day retreat, to (as tweeted) “pause, get pampered, and ponder what’s next.”
I was bordering on burn out, and needed to get away. It wasn’t burn out in the normal sense… I wasn’t exhausted, depressed, or down on my work. I was just ‘blah’, as in: there’s no creative juice left in this orange… I was squeezed dry.
My coach, Martha Lynn Walker, told me what to do: “get away by yourself,” she said. “You’re too into ‘doing.’ You need time for ‘being.’” That was last Thursday.
You know how, when something is right, the seas seem to part? That’s what happened to me. I found the perfect spot within 2 hours driving distance. Unfortunately, it was booked solid. Magically, a room became available an hour later. Within 24 hours, I was unpacked, settled in, gazing at the water view, journal in hand… just ‘ being.’
My intention: to breakthrough my blahs… get my mojo back! I had no idea how… but as I always say; “when the intention is strong, the ‘how’ always shows up.”
Immediately, I had a realization. Well, it wasn’t really new… but I always ignored it. It was something I’ve long wanted to do, but couldn’t get myself to do it.
What I realized: I rarely blog about me. I rarely share my innermost thoughts or my personal journey… especially around money. Even though that’s the whole point of a blog, right? But I was scared, resistant. I’m great at writing other people’s stories or reporting facts and observations. Self exposure, however, felt scary, vulnerable.
Which made the next step obvious… I have to face my resistance by revealing myself. So that’s what I want to do, starting now.
I’m going to use the next couple of blogs to tell you about my retreat and my revelations. What’s more, I suspect what I learned about myself could inspire many of you. It certainly inspired me… I’m back to business, mojo intact.
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